In The Beginning

Hello friends! Holly here...so glad you're here today! Happy New Year~! I had lots of plans of how I wanted to introduce myself. Stories to tell so you would have an idea about how I think and what I'm all about. Hopefully it would be interesting enough for you to come back and read more. BUT I've scrapped that plan. It would take too long to get to the nitty gritty of where I am in life right now and what I really want to share with you. It's a new year and change is in the air!

My first change? I feel FAT and I'm sick of it. I'm not obese, and I'm not healthy, I'm somewhere in the middle. Healthy is where I want to be. It's been a gradual, slow change over the last few years. Until now, this minute. Now, I stand looking in a mirror and obsess over every roll and undefined muscle. I'm late (or MORE late) everywhere because I have to try on 10 things before I finally choose something (black) and I hope that it will hide my muffin top when I sit down. I'm at my breaking point.

I am not meant to live like this! None of us are. While I sit and obsess over clothes and "covering-up", life is passing me by. I feel it. I look around and see my baby girl who is already 5. My oldest sounds like my husband. I call his voicemail that he recorded when he was 10 so I can remember what his sweet little voice used to sound like. My middle son will be taller than me in the blink of an eye. They are my precious moments and I can't let even ONE more moment pass by, being too self-absorbed with the ring around my middle to notice. I feel like I don't have energy anymore...I'm not FUN anymore. Can anyone relate to this?

Part of my problem is that I have been looking for the solution within myself. If ONLY I had enough willpower!

Well, willpower isn't the answer. In order to really make my moments matter when it comes to tackling this goal of weight loss and health, I need significant motivation to make significant changes. I think I have found my answer. Something that will work for me and help me create habits that will create lasting change. I'm very excited (and a little scared) to share my journey with you. I'll warn you up front, it WILL have UGLY moments. I am very emotionally tied to food in a bad way. Those ties are binding me and I'm suffocating. It's time once and for all to break free. It all begins tomorrow...Are you with me?